Have you ever heard that expression before? “It’s such a Job day.” I don’t mean “Job” as in job, as in go get a job. But “Job” as in the Biblical man mentioned in the book of Job in the Bible. Okay, just making sure we’re on the same page.
I think this must be a fairly old expression, because I remember them having Anne Shirley use it in the movie Anne of Green Gables, while Marilla rolled her eyes at her.
I bring this up (and maybe I shouldn’t because I’m still processing) because I have been contemplating a few things that at first seemed random, but on closer examination…not so random at all (they never are, of course).
So that new car we were just gifted…the pretty burnt orange one, it’s dead. We had to get it towed the day after getting its plates, insurance, and whatever else my hubby did at the DMV. I sort of rolled my eyes when I received the text from my husband that said, “do we still have towing?” Oh great, I thought. Seriously! The Lord just gave us this car! We didn’t have to pay a thing! I had just written a blog in which I gushed and gushed over His goodness to us, and now it won’t even start. I mean, we laid hands on it as a family and everything, thanking the Lord for His provision…and we’re not even Pentecostal, ya’ll (I’m not southern either, for that matter, lol).
At this point, you probably wouldn’t have faulted me for saying, “Lord, what’s going on? I thought this was from you.” But… actually I didn’t. This surprised me as much as anyone. My first thought was actually, “The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away,” lol.
Seriously, though, I picked my husband up in my mother’s vehicle (because how funny would it have been if I took our van and it decided to die also…because it has been whenever it feels the need to) and we went to Walmart to get computer ink, cereal and graham crackers…and we just laughed. We decided since we didn’t have the kids with us, it was kind of like a date, so I bought Oreos too. This is where my husband reminded me that nothing happening to us was at all random.
You see, first our four bikes were stolen (this was only a couple of weeks ago), so we filed a claim with our insurance and are awaiting the results of that. Next, our van starting stranding us all over town, so Aaron’s been tinkering with that. Finally, we received this wonderful gift of a car from the Lord (I have no doubts it was from Him still), but then it died. And I mean died! The timing belt snapped and it would cost more to fix than we were willing to buy it for pretty much…so by by pretty car.
All this and I’m not mad…and I’m so taken aback by that. In fact, I was in the shower this morning thanking the Lord for everything He was doing for us, when I suddenly remember the car, and started laughing that I wasn’t mad about it. Why?! I’m so confused why I’m not having a pity party right now…why I’m not crying out that I’m having such a “Job Day”…or month for that matter, but on the contrary, I’m filled with so much joy. I can only credit all of this to Him, because I feel as though my normal response would be to stress…and in some moments I have, but He has refused to leave me in that place. So I think, maybe He wants us to have no vehicles and stay home a whole bunch more, lol. Maybe there will be a giant car pile up on the road and we’ll miss it because we have no car! It makes me want to yell, “Hey Lord, we have a motorcycle too, You know. Don’t forget about that,” and then stand back and wait for Him to do His thing. Because you know what….His thing is not to take things away.
The book of Job is not about our God making bets with the Devil and taking things away. It’s about His sovereignty over all things!…and that we can trust in Him. This just hit me today, as I sat fearful on the floor wondering if He would take the motorcycle next, because though I didn’t dwell on it, to be honest, it did cross my mind. I even started to have a little panic attack when Aaron took the kids on an errand in our van, hoping that it wouldn’t stall out and get them in a huge accident. So, not every moment of my day has been trust, trust, trust…but then Lord reminded me about Job. Job didn’t do anything to deserve to have all of his worldly possessions taken away…it wasn’t his fault. Neither, is there anything I can do, or not do, to end this crazy month…or to see it last into tomorrow. It’s not about the stuff. God owns all of that. He gave us a $1500 dollar car for free in a day…and three days later it wasn’t worth the parking lot it stalled out on. Nothing is out of His reach.
Everyday, I could be fearful that something could be taken away. But then it hits me. Nothing has ever been secure in my hands…ever!!!! Nothing has ever come to me by my own means…outside of the grace of God. So we trust…and thank him that we’ve had our van as long as we have, and that it ran today just fine.
I still feel a bit like I’m on Blue’s Clues, pulling out my handy dandy notebook, and trying to figure out what it all will look like in the end. I’m still crying out for a few more clues, because I think we must still be a little bit dense as to His intentions. I mean, I didn’t ask for a free car, so His giving it to us and then taking it away must have been for some other reason than for us to have had it…was that confusing? Right, that’s why I need another clue.
But I cannot fear my God…I can’t be afraid of Him and serve Him at the same time. I read that somewhere, though I couldn’t tell you where, and it has stuck with me.
One last crazy example. Prior to this pregnancy I’ve had two miscarriages in a row. I won’t go into the emotions of those right now, except to say that with the second (which was farther along than the first), I kept wondering why the Lord was taking away a perfectly happy, healthy baby from me. Then the pathology report came back…it was a chromosomal defect. Had I carried to term, it could have been extremely non-functioning. The Lord took my baby to be with Him. It was a mercy, not a curse.
We were going to spend $1500 on a car that might have been okayed by the mechanic because he might not have been able to tell the timing belt was about to break…but God knew. He also knew we were set on buying it…so He may have given it to us for free, because He knew it was a dud, and He graciously wasn’t willing that we spend that money for nothing. Just sayin… why do we always see the gray and not the silver lining?
I don’t know if this was the reason, only that my God is good…and a good God gives good gifts. …and life lessons that make us stronger count as one of those. 🙂 Hope this encourages some of you who might be having “Job days” yourselves. So, God bless you if you are. It’s an opportunity to trust!